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Un día llega alguien que te abraza tan fuerte que vuelve a encajar todas las piezas rotas
Que lindo querer otra vez, sentir el sentimiento igual de fuerte pero al mismo tiempo, totalmente distinto
Lo más lejos que quiero estar de ti es a tu lado
I tried to change
Closed my mouth more
Tried to be softer
Prettier
Less awake
Fasted for 60 days
Wore white
Abstained from mirrors
Abstained from sex
Slowly did not speak another word
In that time, my hair, it grew past my ankles
I slept on a mat on the floor
I swallowed a sword
I levitated
Went to the basement
Confessed my sins
And was baptized in a river
I got on my knees and said amen
And said I mean
I whipped my own back and asked for domination at your feet
I threw myself into a volcano
I drank the blood and drank the wine
I sat alone and begged and bent at the waist for god
I crossed myself and thought I saw the devil
I grew thickened skin on my feet
I bathed in bleach
And plugged my menses with pages from the holy book
But still inside me
Coiled deep
Was the need to know
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